WHY HIM??

feeling and love is really subjective to understand....why we have too fall in love with some1 dat obviously not belong 2us...why why why.....i met too many guys and not all of them are special....but dis guy is so special until its hard 4me 2 4get him...we r fren now n forever...but nobody understand my feeling towards him....i try many ways to 4get him..but obviously i can't.....
oh God!please give me guide 4me to 4get him as some1 special in my life dis few month....i'm so thankful 2god as given me opportunity 2 knoe him...but i really sure dat i will never get him as i knoe how much he loves his gf...i'm too sorry coz i knoe i'm not deserve to belong to him...wutever it is i still pray 4his happiness...MEMORY IS HARD TO DELETE....I can still be his good friend but dat is not what i really want...dat is y lately i feel like freakin strange weirdo when facin him...but don't worry, u will never losing me as ur special fren...coz deep inside my heart u r my ABC SPECIAL ever...thanx 4being such a best creature on dis earth i ever met... :)